I Tried to Leave My Life Behind and I found it Again in a Hotel Room

I was taught early on in life to pray and face issues by making decisions quickly. I was taught that if I ran from my problems that they would never go away and still be there. I have tried to leave my life behind many times. When my oldest was not even walking I remember thinking, “I am gonna pack our things and create a new life for us two. We are outta here!” BUT then I prayed.

I believe that God orchestrates all of our lives. I have kept prayer journals and now, 20 years later I read them and I am in awe of how amazing God is and how he answers prayers. I was a young single mother and I didn’t know what I was doing then, heck I don’t even know at times what I am doing now, BUT God does. I never wanted to abandon my responsibilities, I have always wanted to know how to work through them, however when stress becomes so intense I have a feeling of wanting to run far, far, away.

About 10 months ago, my life became so hard too handle I felt I needed to run away again. I wanted distance so bad. After an intense, emotional breakdown, feeling like I was losing my mind, I booked a hotel room far away from home instead of crashing on my sister couch or even going to a friends or my parents home. I truly didn’t wanna return. I just got in my car as fast as I could and I drove. Before this event, I was at a point where I felt I exhausted all help for my middle son Jaiden and I was doing things all wrong. I physically couldn’t move and I felt frozen. I was completely gone mentally and emotionally. Between the heavy load of caring for the boys, the unexpected things Jaiden would do, seemingly endless phone calls to Jaidens psychiatrist, ambulances, police officers, therapists to get Jaidens life sorted I felt alone and completely lost. I didn’t know who I was anymore. On top that, we were dealing with people in our life that just made life all the more unbearable.

The whirlwind of all of these things felt so heavy on me and I was ready to go. Once in quiet, I was able to listen to the voice of God. I screamed at him, I worshipped, I wrote, I sat in more quiet and listened to some more worship music and I fell asleep listening to bible on youtube and dreamt. Booking the hotel room didn’t help the troubled relationships, or take away all the crazy, however it did help me move toward a solution and it gave me some space to slow down a bit. I was able to think on the things I knew were working, what wasn’t working and come up with a plan.

I was diagnosed with PTSD a few years back and I do know that my startle response is off, I have nightmares frequently, and recurring thoughts of trauma. I was able to make an appointment with a great psychotherapist and have been seeing her for the last 8 months. She has helped me move from one stage to the next slowly and has given me the right ways to cope with stress and burnout. We will all face intense issues in this life BUT as long as we stick with God, and run to solutions and not away from the things that are most important life can be more manageable. Space is needed at times, running is also needed at times. Run to THE father let him hold you, let him LOVE you and let him LEAD you. I promise he makes all things new even when it hurts.

Our Lord, we belong to you. We tell you what worries us, and you won’t let us fall. Psalm 55:22 CEV

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The Impact of Crisis on Family Relationships

What can you do to better adapt to chaos you might be going through in life and your relationships Why are some things an ongoing battle? What a lot of people don’t realize is that things will bother bother you when your weighed down with all that’s going on in your family life.

When you carry around stress for years you are more likely to go completely crackers from chronic stress and fatigue. You have to realize that if you allow these things to lead you to burnout you will have battles in your family relationships and friendships and feel crappy, but the more balance in your life the more likely you will feel better.

Instead, what if you did things to feel balanced? What if you consciously chose to eat well, sleep well, move your body more, pray, meditate?

Take care of yourself and if you are arguing with friends and family it’s because you are out of balance and once your back in balance you will deal with others better. It’s so true and I’m speaking from experience here.

There are certain things that can throw me into a fit certain things like for instance some pet peeves of mine are talking over me, making me feel like I haven’t done enough for my kids, telling me what you think is best for my family, oh man I wanna start a fight, but as I’ve matured I’ve learned to cry it out, pray it out, praise it out, breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth and at times I will set up boundaries if need be.

How about you? What makes you mad, sets you off? Know your emotional triggers, is it a certain topic, a tone, a form of disrespect? Let others blow there steam and listen don’t jump in so quickly but validate them. I have been there where I haven’t felt heard, validated and I just keep going and going till I feel heard. Getting centered and carrying about listening will never go wrong.

Our job is to control our own states of being in conflict, meet others where they are at, and control yourself so that the relationship flourishes. You can give them the benefit of the doubt, don’t always feel like you have to win, don’t get off the topic, don’t blame, figure out together what the problem is. Plus they will not make matters better. No one will ever be completely right especially in caring for children and children with severe special needs.

Control your own state of being when conflict comes up concerning not only your children but other things that happen to come up in your life. Let go and give yourself credit. God knows everything your going through and you will survive this. Focus on taking care of yourself and believe God will help you take care of the rest.

“We often suffer, but we are never crushed. Even when we don’t know what to do, we never give up. In times of trouble, God is with us, and when we are knocked down, we get up again.” 2 Corinthians 4:8-9 CEV

God Knows. God is ALWAYS present.

You are always safe in Gods arms go there frequently.

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Recommended Books For Life Study

Down below I share a list of books I have read over the years that are my favorites and have impacted my life. If you have read any of these books that helped you on your journey, which ones are your favorites?

Do you have any that you believe have changed your life in some way?

Here is my lengthy list of books👇🏼

“Overload” by Joyce Meyer

“The Confident Woman” by Joyce Meyer (My Top 13)

“The Power of a Praying Woman” by Stormie Omartian (My Top 13)

“Warfare” by Tony Evans (My Top 13)

“The Miracle Morning” by Hal Enrod

“The Vaccine Friendly Plan” by Paul Thomas M.D.

“The Total Money Makeover” by Dave Ramsey (My Top 13)

“The Conscious Parent” by Shefali Tsabary Phd

“Boundaries” and “Boundaries with Kids” by Cloud& Townsend

“Views from the Spectrum” by Ron Sandison

“Artist of Life” by Bruce Lee

“How to Read the Bible for all its Worth” by Stuart & Fee

“Ministry Is” by Early and Gutierrez (My Top 13)

“The Reset” by Jeremy Riddle

“On Writing” by Stephen King (My Top 13)

“Rethinking School” by Susan Wise Bauer (my Top 13)

“Atomic Habits” by James Clear

“Rich Dad Poor Dad” and “FAKE” by Robert Kiyosaki

“Greenlights” by Matthew McConaughey (My Top 13)

“At Home with Madame Chic” by Jennifer L. Scott (My Top 13)

“Grit” by Angela Duckworth

“Believe IT: How to Go from Underestimated to Unstoppable” by Jamie Kern Lima

“Think Like a Monk: Train Your Mind for Peace and Purpose Every Day” by Jay Shetty

“Life Force: How New Breakthroughs in Precision Medicine Can Transform the Quality of Your Life & Those You Love” by Tony Robbins

“The Millionaire Messenger: Make a Difference and a Fortune Sharing Your Advice” by Brendon Burchard (My Top 13)

“Mind Over Medicine – REVISED EDITION: Scientific Proof That You Can Heal Yourself” by Lissa Rankin M.D. (My Top 13)

“Wherever You Go, There You Are” by Jon Kabat-Zinn

“The Seven Spiritual Laws Of Success” and “The Healing Self” by Deepak Chopra;

“Daring Greatly” and “The Gifts of Imperfection: Workbook” and “Rising Strong” and “The Power of Vulnerability” And “Braving The Wilderness” by Brené Brown, PhD, LMSW

“When Things Fall Apart” and “The Places That Scare You” and “Start Where You Are: A Guide to Compassionate Living” and “Living Beautifully: With Uncertainty and Change” by Pema Chodron;

“Radical Acceptance: Awakening the Love that Heals Fear and Shame” by Tara Brach;

“You Can Heal Your Life” by Louise Hay;

“The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne;

“Man’s Search For Meaning” by Victor Frankl (My Top 13)

“You’ll See It When You Believe It” by Dr. Wayne Dyer;

“Be Here Now” by Baba Ram Dass;

“Peace Is Every Step” by Thich Nhat Hanh;

“Awareness” by Anthony Demello;

“Unbroken” by Laura Hillenbrand;

“As A Man Thinketh” by James Allen, British Philosopher;

“Parenting the Strong Willed Child” by Rex Forehand & Nicholas Long

“The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide To Personal Freedom” by Don Miguel Ruiz;

“Way Of The Peaceful Warrior by Dan Millman”;

“Candide” by Voltaire;

“The Happiness Makeover: How To Teach Yourself To Be Happy And Enjoy Every Day”;

“Mind Over Mood”
“Change How You Feel By Changing The Way You Think” By Dennis Greenberger, PhD and Christine A. Padesky, PhD

“The Money Class” by Suze Orman

“The Official Guide to Selling Insurance for New Agents” by David Duford

“How To Carry What Can’t Be Fixed” by Megan Divine (My Top 13)

Lastly, my favorite Bible right now is The Bible Recap by Tara Leigh Cobble.

“But the wisdom that comes from above leads us to be pure, friendly, gentle, sensible, kind, helpful, genuine, and sincere.”

‭‭James‬ ‭3:17‬ ‭CEV‬‬

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To My Son with Behavioral and Medical Issues: I Love You

“Mom, it’s big.” “What’s big Jaiden?” “It’s big.” Jai said. “Do you mean the pain? Do you hurt?” “Yes it’s big hurt.”

Talking with Jaiden about how he was having back pain filled me with a deep sense of anxiety and sadness. My eyes filled with tears and I tried to control it. I took a deep breath and set out to help him have some pain relief. This is just a small snippet of how it is when you have a child with severe autism, and intellectual disability and who is mostly nonverbal.

A year ago, I was homeschooling both Jaiden and my youngest Sebastian and I truly believed it would be the best thing for us as a family. When Covid hit, it was hard for Jaiden to go through all of the transitions in school as people were leaving their positions and there was a high turnover rate. I believed keeping him home and homeschooling him would be great as it was great for Sebastian. I would take Jaiden to school in the mornings 20 minutes from our home and every morning he would have a huge meltdown smacking windows, kicking the ceiling of the car, then upon arrival at his school hurting technicians.

I seriously believed homeschool would work for him. “Yes! That’s it.” I said to myself. “I will make it work for him and I can keep him on a schedule and the transitions will be close to nothing as it’s just me, Kevin and the boys.” For about three months it was okay. He loved waking up knowing we were altogether eating breakfast, going on walks, reading together, watching movies together and learning together. However, his mood shifted to becoming more intense. He started having more meltdowns, destroying property, screaming more, spitting, pounding feet more. Our home became a battle zone. Jaiden has the development of a three-year-old and he is now 15 over 240 pounds and about 5’11. He has been going through puberty. Just like typical teens go through changes Jaiden was going through changes too, but on a more magnified level.

My mind was in several different places. I am his mother, but I also was trying to be his teacher, coach, therapist, music teacher, nurse and friend I just wanted to give him opportunities to have a good education from home give him freedom, some joy.

I have placed my career, marriage and my other children’s needs on the side lines. I focused solely on advocating for Jai, navigating his education, medical needs and therapies. I thought by doing all of these things I was helping him and our family by trying to make life more manageable.

After I had a mental health episode in December of 2021 I asked family to help with Jaiden. I studied to be in a new career, I tried to forget about all the things I was doing for and with Jai and I grieved hard. I became cynical and depressed even being around optimistic, spiritual and loving people.

It has been clear to me, that Jaiden will always be with behavioral and medical issues. He will be mostly nonverbal though may talk in sentences at times. I am finally convinced that homeschooling was not a good idea for Jaiden nor was it ever. I always have been motivated to podcast and blog to help others to have faith even when things are not so great. I started to doubt ministry life and I became so depleted emotionally and mentally. It’s because our family lives a complicated reality and it’s not a walk in the park at all.

I know I am not alone and there are many parents that have similar stories with their children. I hope and pray that my son knows how much I love him. That I did and do all these things to help him. If you have a child like mine, I hope you know your not alone in your sadness, your frustrations and grief. Love your child no matter what happens and keep fighting for them.

“Love is always supportive, loyal, hopeful, and trusting.”
‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭13:7‬ ‭CEV‬‬

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Never, Never, Never Give Up

I headed out this morning to run errands and deliver stuff for my middle son Jaiden. I have learned a lot from God these past few months in having more time in silence and solitude. I have escaped for a few hours to pray, worship, read and write. I’ve had time with Kevin, the boys and have had great lunch meets, conversations with new friends. I wonder how Jaiden feels as he is nonverbal. I have had conversations with him as I always have talked to him like I do my other boys. I asked him, “How are you Jai?” He said, “I don’t know, well, it’s ok.” That shocked me that he spoke to me in clear words the other day. He never talks to me like that so when he does I love on him 100 times more.

I have felt like my real self on some days. On others days, when left to my own devices particularly when alone I think a lot. I believe most people do that as well.

Of course it’s normal to think a lot. However, what you’re thinking about is what’s most important. When change took place in our family, my thoughts were all over the place until I got in a quiet place with God in prayer. My thoughts also became more clear to me after seeking out therapy. I am glad that the last few months I have had two good christian counselors that have so much wisdom and it helped me to see life more clearly.

Strength. endurance. The attitude that says I will never give up no matter what happens. That’s what I’ve been ruminating on. Praying without ceasing, worshiping, and loving on my family.

Never. Never. Never. Give up.

It’s very hard to keep going for some.

If you’re one of those people having a hard time with life, Believe that you have a purpose, trust God, stick with God and never, never, never give up on yourself or your family no matter what happens. Keep on loving. You are loved.

“If you are tired from carrying heavy burdens, come to me and I will give you rest.” (‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11‬‬:‭28‬ CEV)

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Jaiden & Mom nosy’s

Waiting With Patience

It’s been Seventeen weeks. Almost four months have passed and thats how long I have had time to wait, not with patience at first. I have been in a season of waiting and stopped writing and podcasting to work on myself. My mind, body and spirit were not at its best and I knew I needed time with God, some therapy and time to work on my mental health. I immediately began journaling my thoughts in December of 2021. I did this to see what kind of pattern there was with my behavior and thought life. It all seemed so pointless at first. Then after a few weeks I realized a trend. I read the journal entries and saw how my mental health declined after being around specific people. I read about how happy I was around specific people and being in specific situations. I learned a lot about myself and from journaling my encounters and feelings I learned how to get rid of toxic relationships and what made me live with more peace.

I just started making choices to live better. I started praying more, reading the Bible more, worshipping more, working out, eating better and making smoothies. Of course that’s not what May make your life worth living. However, those are some of the things I do that make me feel better and I do feel a heck of a lot better mentally, physically, and emotionally. I have also started reading books on new topics as well like life insurance, technology and finance.

I have hard some heart breaking moments with my son Jaiden and I tried to control his whole life. I believe letting go of trying so hard and eliminating negative people in our circle has helped so much. I let go of believing I was the only one who could help Jaiden and allows others to step in. I stopped hanging with toxic people and stopped listening to them too.

That’s right! I clicked the “delete” button. I had to for my own sanity.

Soooo.

As you can see I have chosen to shake things up a bit. I tend to do that frequently in my life, but it’s never been to this extent. Only for some I am gone, different. To others who really know and love me and my family I am finally accepting reality, making changes for the better and living with peace.

It’s late now, and all I’ve done is babble on about change. Yada, yada, yada. I pray that you make the hard changes you need for yourself, choose good people to hang with and spend time talking with God and wait patiently.

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“I waited and waited and waited some more, patiently, knowing God would come through for me. Then, at last, he bent down and listened to my cry.” Psalms‬ ‭40:1‬ ‭TPT‬‬

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Who Are You Hangin With

Having fun makin silly faces

I just wanted to ask who are you hanging with these days? I’ve noticed that when hanging with people who tend to be negative, pessimistic and irritable life tends to go on a downward spiral. When life is filled with complicated things why make it more complicated? I was isolated for awhile in my life when parenting my boys early on. This was PRE-COVID. They were younger more demanding of my time and my middle one is with severe autism and has complexities I won’t get into today. It was a complicated time for our whole family and some had strong opinions on what I should be doing with my son while others just offered help. Which would you choose? If you have a severe special needs child that you are taking care of you don’t need ANY outside influences that are negative in your life or your child’s life.

If you are in isolation, get out of it and surround yourself with people who are positive, prayerful and have an optimistic outlook on life. Be careful about family members who are difficult and pessimistic. You can still love them, but don’t hang out with them if you always feel like crap after being in their presence. I would trust that God will help you out with that relationship.

You may be dealing with emotional issues, sitting in your own thoughts. Maybe your child was just diagnosed with autism well, most likely your going through a lot things. You maybe setting up appointments and therapies and jumping through educational hurdles for your child. That’s a lot to deal with and it’s very hard going through all of that so you need supportive friends, family and a supportive community to get you through it all. Hang out with those who build you up. A tribe of good people preferably from your local church. If you don’t want to go in person get plugged in to your local church online who is Bible based, life group equipped and has a good online presence. It’s important to have a community who loves on you. It’s been 12 weeks since I’ve spent quality time with my son Jaiden. I know he is ok and safe with family, but I have had tears, sadness, and anger from not being able to help him how he needs. What has helped is family and friends who are supportive, loving and encouraging. I pray the same for you to have that tribe too.

“Good people do good things because of the good in their hearts, but bad people do bad things because of the evil in their hearts. Your words show what is in your heart.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭6:45‬ ‭CEV‬‬

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Nothing But Awareness

I’ve been reckless, focused, scared, strong, elated, grateful, selfish, hopeless, depressed, satisfied, overwhelmed, challenged and exhausted. I have been in fight, flight and freeze mode. Normally, it’s easy for me to create goals and vision boards. However, this time I’ve got nothing BUT God.

Has it really been 10 weeks? It has been 10 weeks since I had a mental, emotional breakdown. The day where I felt pain, confusion, anxiety, anger and sadness. All of us have suffering, and all of us have that holy silence within us that pulls us back to reality if we can become aware of God being present.

We are in a new chapter, my family and I and I look forward to connecting with my family and friends, as well as brand new one’s. I look forward to family dinners with my boys, basketball games, Bible studies, new beginning’s, spending time in worship, serving and making decisions that matter.

I considered how life would be without God. When we go through things we have to be strong and know that God is our companion and he is willing and ready to reveal himself to us. He will help. I was in the midst of a mess and didn’t want to be aware of Gods presence, but he is omnipresent he is always there. He knew exactly what was going on and it was going on in his presence. You can’t hide a thing from God. He is our peace in the midst of a mess. He will help you to survive it!

If you are going through a difficult time, are not able to make the right decisions, take a step back, breathe and know God is there. At times you will feel by yourself BUT you are not alone. Be more aware that God is always with you.

Scripture

“The Eternal is my shepherd, He cares for me always. He provides me rest in rich, green fields beside streams of refreshing water. He soothes my fears; He makes me whole again, steering me off worn, hard paths to roads where truth and righteousness echo His name. Even in the unending shadows of death’s darkness, I am not overcome by fear. Because You are with me in those dark moments, near with Your protection and guidance, I am comforted. You spread out a table before me, provisions in the midst of attack from my enemies; You care for all my needs, anointing my head with soothing, fragrant oil, filling my cup again and again with Your grace. Certainly Your faithful protection and loving provision will pursue me where I go, always, everywhere. I will always be with the Eternal, in Your house forever.”

Psalm 23 THE VOICE

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Wordless Answers When Suffering

We all can’t deny we will suffer at some point in our lives. I am learning how pain may never go away, but we choose to suffer by holding on to the things we can’t control. Some hurts are extremely painful and I do understand if you have situations beyond your control, sickness, disease or all kinds of poisonous people in your life throwing out what they believe is best for you. It hurts all of it.

When does the suffering end? When we choose for it to. As I said, pain never ceases, but we at some point in the messes of life have to choose other things to fill our minds with. Force the good. What a hard thing for us to do. Seeking out the good when it hurts, oh man is it hard. I pray for you to find the peace of God in that quiet place and that he takes you over if you are in any pain and suffering ❤️

“Here’s the story I’ll tell my friends when they come to worship, and punctuate it with Hallelujahs: Shout Hallelujah, you God-worshipers; give glory, you sons of Jacob; adore him, you daughters of Israel. He has never let you down, never looked the other way when you were being kicked around. He has never wandered off to do his own thing; he has been right there, listening.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭22:22-24‬ ‭MSG‬‬

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Time Doesn’t Heal All Wounds

Time may lessen the hurts, the pains of life, but it will not heal all wounds. That is something we have to make an effort to do. When the future you were counting on turns to mush in your hands, you want to ask yourself some serious questions.

“What was my part in what went down? How might I have given my power away in this situation? What motivated me to do that, and what can I do now to make things better? How can I make something beautiful of this? I would be lying to you if I told you “All is great! And here are 10 great things to do in life.” No, I don’t have much advice to give and I might not have any good advice for awhile and sometimes that’s okay.

What I can tell you is to:

1. Learn from your mistakes.

2. Stop blaming anyone (yourself included).

3. Resolve to do better next time.

4. Grow. Learn. Forgive.

That is sincerely all I have in me today. I am learning to tend to my mind, my heart, growing, learning, and forgiving. In this process, I am also loving others even in the midst of hurts, pains and I’ve realized that time doesn’t heal all wounds. We heal our wounds.

Without deviation from the norm, progress is not possible.— Frank Zappa

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